So I have always been a super TYPE A girl most of my life, I am the girl that is always on it! If I say I am going to do it, I get it done; well I used to be that way. Having kids has changed me in the most incredible way, but it has also made me a little more relaxed and unfortunately I am no longer the girl who has it all together. I can barely remember what day it is and my to do list is never ending because unfortunately little gets done and the list keeps getting longer. I wish I had my attention to detail that I had before kids but the reality is I don’t. When I do have a moment to actually do something, I am usually to tired to think and give in to my guilty pleasure, my nap. After the kids go to bed, Michael and I try to decompress by usually watching tv or sometimes a movie but again at this point in time my brain is mush and I don’t even know where the day went.
I swear, I can barely write an email or a text message that I said I was going to write. By the way, I have been trying to write this blog for over a month, yeah that’s the new me and it is an adjustment. Even writing this I am realizing that I told someone I would do something that I have yet to do… ok got that done. But anyway, here’s to rolling with new me. A little scattered, not as together, a little exhausted but a fuller heart than I could ever imagine. Ok now I am going to sneak in a nap before the kids wake up. Michael and I are going on a date, and let me tell you that is a big deal, like this will be the 2nd time we went out for dinner just us since the kids were born.
So farewell my reliable, organized friend and hello to the new Bev. It’s been rough but I know we can pull it together someday, or won’t. All I know is I have never been more tired, more confused, more out of shape, and more brain dead than ever but you know what I WOULDN’T CHANGE A THING! This is me! And I am cool with it!
Ugh Tee Loved by Hannah and Eli
Heather says
I love this!!! I feel the same way most days! It is wonderful that you do not hide who you are.
Victoria says
I loved watching your show I even named my daughter Savannah after your little one on the show that show inspired me a lot an thought me a lot on how to parent
BarbaraO'Brien says
Bev you don’t have to be perfect,
just be who you are. You are a
wonderful wife and mom and
a terrific friend and we love you
just that way, don’t ever change!
Leslie says
Love your shirt!!! I need one of those 🙂 Thank you for saying out loud what we all feel!
Jennifer says
I totally could have written this! But I agree…I wouldn’t change it for a thing!
Christina R Green says
Know matter what you will always change in life I sure did when I had my kids I love them so much would love to have 1 more but it’s not the right time for me I’m only 41 but my husband and I say if god wants me to have another baby then he will. Mother hood is good until they become teenagers then the are a pain in the but. My 2 boys are grown and moved out one is 22 and the other one is 18 my step daughter is only 15 and she a hand full. I loved the show 7theven and still watch it I’m trying to get all the episode show I can watch them any time I want to. That show has help me though my first marriage to my ex.
Annamarie says
Thank you so much for writing this! I can’t tell you how much I needed to hear this! I am a new mom with a 14 month old and I have been feeling the same way! My husband and I just went on our second date too! I love that your honest and real because I don’t have it all together either and I love that I am taking care of my baby! So thank you for this!!
Heather says
I only have one daughter and I am not even close to the same as I used to be. I used to be outgoing, willing to try new things, hang with friends and now I have become more of an introvert, homebody and follow schedules. My head is all scatter brained and just exhausted…. And my daughter is 4. Lol I would not change it for the world either!!! I love her craziness and she’s worth forgetting about everyone else. Love my baby!
Melissa Rogers, ian's mom says
I’m glad you found the time to write what I’ve been thinking for the last 8.75 months! I totally agree with you, but I think this is what I was put here for, as I know you do. I’ll organize the school parties and such again later. But for now, I’m just happy to remember to shower and eat! Lol Thank you for being a real mom! Those are hard to come by!! 🙂
Lucie Crete-Racette says
Don’t despair, it’s only temporary. Soon enough, the kids will be all grown up. As they get older, you’ll be able to teach them how to be more self-sufficient and they will learn to do more for themselves. Once they reach their teen years, they’ll be out with their friends all the time and you’ll wonder how the years slipped by so quickly.
gary parker says
welcome to motherhood im a dad and i know what ur going thue and like u said u whouldnt change a thing well beverly me either i love being a dad and seeing my daughter grow up to a beautiful women yeah she is 22 but i was not a perfict time seeing her as a kid ruff but i love it so i know what u going thue like that when she was littel but its great now she is married and still going to school at isu and working so keep ur chin up and love them with all ur heart they grow up fast take care beverly